Afraid: Filled with fear or concern.

"My everything."

It is my first time to undergo this kind of feeling. The fear of loosing this person makes me wanna go insane. I'm afraid that one day, she'll tell me that she doesn't love me anymore and want to bring back her life before we met each other. It bothers me so much because i really love this girl, I even think my future with her having a good life with our kids. I know that their five years of relationship is hard to forget easily that is why I'm doing my very best even in small little ways to show her that I will be better even if it is not the best, to be the man who will do everything just to show how important she is, and how she means to me. Distance is killing me because in reality we are miles apart, that is why communication is one important factor to be able to maintain our relationship. I want her to know that even if I'm at work, the thought of her remains in my mind. That I'm working not just for myself but to give her the things that could make her happy. I don't know what to do. When she's at home and not answering my calls neither replying to my messages, i just want to hurt myself. I don't know a single person whom I can call or send a message to check if she's fine or what's happening to her. I hate this damn feeling! I look stupid because all I can do is communicate with her but it all ends in that when she's ignoring me. I'm so pathetic! A poor guy who doesn't make her girl feel special among other girls. The best for me could be just an ordinary effort for her. But whatever happens, I want you to know that I'll be the man you can count on and who will not just love you but do anything to show that my intentions are good and I will be yours forever. I love you so much!